can't help but feel upset

no matter how much i try to say things are alright, inside i know things aren't. today i just felt like breaking down and just crying. but then, that would've been too weird, wouldn't it. the temptation to just succumb to the "mental judging" was quite big, but then again, nothing's bigger than God. which is something i'm quite thankful for :D

a heavy burden weighed my heart all day and is still. and no matter how hard i try to forget everything and just delete it from my memory, i couldn't. i can't face the people i would've been so casual with, and i just can't help but think, how much does he/she know about me?

i'm going to skip the part where i say "i'm going to state some random statements", because i am not being random. not today.

1. i may whine, but its not to get attention.
2. i do not pout.
3. i do not like anyone. feels like the millionth time i;m saying this.
4. i'm getting quite pissed off, honestly.
5. they got me good. hope they're happy now.